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June 08, 2004
Artistic Confidence
Photography , Water

This post is in response to a comment in "It's Alive!!!". I started writing it and it got too long, so it became a post of its own:


Deciding to charge people money for your art is not an easy decision to make. Photography is something that I love to do and its taken Kevin quite some time to convince me to start this business.

One of my issues is that until today I don't know that I believed that my work was good enough or special enough for people to really really want it. Years ago I started out with theatre as a hobby. Knew I wasn't a good enough actor and only a slightly better technician and that it would be a frustrating life for me. I tried to cut it out of my life, but couldn't. So I figured out how to keep it. I knew I was good at organizing people, events and business issues, so I got my Masters In Arts Management. I got that degree at the best school in that subject, Carnigie Mellon University. I wasn't the best person to ever leave that school, but I was damn good. But I graduated into an ecomony that really sucks; and the arts are always the first thing to lose budgets.

There have been no jobs since I graduated about a year ago. However Kevin, the angel that he is, has never given up on me. We had never meant to find ourselves still together, it was meant to be a Pittsburgh fling, but some of the best things are acidental. He has stood beside me and helped me forward. One of the best things he and his family did was give me a digital camera that had once belonged to Kevin's father. I had always loved photography but just never had the budget to presue it. The digital camera opened new doors to me, and when Kevin saw that he started to encourage it. He bought the Nikon D70 and urged me toward a photoblog. He got me the macro lens for my birthday and supported me taking an online class (he even took another class from the same instructor at the same time) and he has gently nudged and nudged toward selling my stuff.

I think that is one of the keys, he nudged he didn't push. I hate being pushed. I have a stubborn (I'm polish and a taurus) streak and if you push me I push back. I think he has figured that out and so he nudged and let me slowly warm up to the idea.

I did finally start working on the business website and trying to get things set up for the business, but there was still this thing in my head. You see I have gone to school with photographers and other artists, I have seen how much they study and how hard they work, and how many years they have been at it. The bulk of my body of work is from less than a year right now. I just didn't feel like I should be saying - hey, look at me... you should pay me and not those people who have so much more time and energy invested in their work. Its not that I won't put that work in, just that I haven't been at it long enough yet.

I started the business because I needed to do something with my degree that I spent two years getting and I love doing the photography, so I might as well do something with my degree and have fun. Part of me expects it to succeed and part of me doesn't.

This morning there is a little change in my thought process though. It's the last week of my class, which I have loved. My professor is Bryan F. Peterson who has been a photography for 25 years and has done work for major clients like HP and has written several books.

Our last assignement was to upload our 3 favorite works. I uploaded Erotic Red, Jarred and Cutout and was awarded Picture of the week for all three photos. In response to one message that Bryan made about Erotic red I decided to also upload Painted. This was the response I received.


"Rachel-
You have a helluva gift for seeing and composing-I hope you do something with it!!! This is an equally awesome shot (to Erotic Red) if not more so since "its not been seen before" at least by me in more then 25 years of looking at pictures-potential contest winner?
Bryan"

This was the confidence boost I think I needed to believe that even though I've been really working at it for less than I year, my work is good enough to be on the same playing ground as other artists.

Anyway, that hugely long story out of the way. Don't push your girlfriend into making her art a business, nudge her. Sometimes all you have to do is really show your interest in her work and let her bask in your appreciation of her work. Encourage the thanks from other people. When you are around people she has created things for, bring up some detail in the work she did for them that you really like and get a conversation going about that. Let her bask in that kind of praise and her confidence will grow. Given a little time she will warm to the idea and you may just be opening the doors to that one praise that really gives her the confidence in her work to believe people should pay for it.

If she decides she wants to talk about it, send her to me, I'll be happy to talk to her. Though I don't know that I'm a good example yet. My business is less than a week old, I have a very small group of people on my mailing list and haven't really sold anything yet. Not that I expect to yet, I have a lot more work to do an I will have some successes soon.

There is a lot of work in starting a business. Its not easy, it starts very slow and you have to put money in to get money out. I PLAN TO MAKE IT WORK!!!!

PS: Please Please Please sign up for my mailing list everyone!!

Comments

Man that's long...and I thought *I* was longwinded...ok, composing response, but I'm also tearing down our server room today, so I'm doing it in stages as I sort things out in my head (see my post on Kev's site for details on how my brain works :)

post incoming in a while :)

Posted by: Bix at June 8, 2004 12:01 PM

Screw it, mine got too long too. :-p Switching to email so as to not bore the rest of the community. :)

Posted by: Bix at June 8, 2004 02:11 PM

All I can say is that Kevin was right.

I can't tell you enough how impressed I am with your photos...you are extremely talented.

The hardest thing is to be confident in your own work - you've seen Mark's brother's bullfighter - it's hard to believe that guy doesn't think he's GOOD.

Keep up the good work and the good attitude.

*hugs*

Posted by: BlackSheep at June 9, 2004 04:55 PM

The benefits of this being my blog - I CAN BORE EVERYONE ALL I WANT!!!! Wa ha ha ha....

Bix - thanks for the email, I will respond soon, I promise.

Blacksheep - Thanks *hugs*
I'm currently contemplating when would be a good time/place to have a business opening party/mini gallery show. Oh so much work to do!

Posted by: rachel at June 9, 2004 05:01 PM

No worries :) At least the first half of that email was "thinking out loud" stuff, more than anything else, so feel free to say "ok, he's nutty" and don't feel at ALL obligated to respond :)

She and I chatted about things last night a bit, re: business ideas, etc. Basically, right now she feels she has so much other stuff on her plate that she doesn't have time to start something that she really wants to be able to give her all to. Which, I think, is a good decision...she's spread pretty thin as it is, and I'm just trying to keep her smiling and as non-stressed as possible. :)

Posted by: Bix at June 10, 2004 08:56 AM

Sounds like a good plan.

Posted by: rachel at June 10, 2004 10:14 AM

FanBoy has done much the same for me and my writing, though he's been more aggressive since I've said I want it.

Zhaneel

Posted by: Zhaneel at June 14, 2004 10:46 AM
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